Starting Weight: 252.4
Current Weight: 251.1
Interdaily Loss: -1.3 lbs
Total Loss: -1.3 lbs
Well, it is a start. I cannot believe I am struggling my way out of the 250s, when only a few months ago I was dipping my toe so sweetly into the 220s for the first time in years. But thus is the nature of the beast with obesity. You can't get too excited too quickly, you have to go slow and steady and not get over confident. I reward my successes with food, the very definition of counter productive. So I have to behave. I'm trying to drown my fat cells in water today. I'm guzzling water like it's going out of style! The more I drink, the more full I feel, the less I think about filling my tummy with food.
But drinking water to satiate hunger is like pouring quick sand into a torn bag; no matter how fast you pore it, it goes through so quickly that there is still a void. But you know. It's a start.
I'm so very excited for this weekend. I intend to enjoy myself thuroughly amidst the company of good friends and good alcohol and great food. Food shouldn't be such a motivator of happiness but, it is. It makes me happy. As miserable as the guilty makes me in the afterward, the actual makes me so incredibly satiated and happy. I must find balance.
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